I am a volunteer. I operate from a house made of mud and grass. I am two to three hours away from a computer and internet. So when I do work that requires the use of such things it is more difficult and time consuming than usual. Yet their are certain things that necessitate these additional hardships.
I, for instance, planned and organized for a camp for ophans and vulnerable children. It was difficult and it required a lot of diligence, but I persisted because I believe in what this camp could do and be for these kids. Now I was approved and simply waiting for the money to be deposited into my account. But since someone is smiting me for my judging comments about various famous peoples poor choices in attire--I'm just guessing thats why I would be smited--two weeks before the camp begins I am informed that they withdrew my check. No money. NO MONEY!
What frustrates me is that people who are canceling checks don't understand that I live in house made of mud and grass two to three hours from civilization. They don't understand that I committed my own money, time, and sanity to completing this project, all in good faith that I was going to be receiving the money to fund this adventure in saving children. After they decided to cancel my check they picked up their dry cleaning, sat down to a night of TEVO'd "Lost" and ordered in Chinese. After I found out I was nearly in tears followed by the grim thoughts of telling my counterparts and a seven year old orphan that this was canceled. So hats off to Washington and hats off to beaurucracy for their work in the fields of being unclear and just completely unthoughtful.
If you say by whatever by-laws and provisions that you can't fund something than don't approve it. You can't renege. And you can't renege in Africa days before a program starts. With any luck someone at this office will figure out how to make this work before I have to pull the cord. But for me it's too late. My confidence is shaken and I can't see a way back.
(on the upside I'm not ill and I still love Zambia and the idea of what I'm doing)
